{"id":31018,"date":"2011-10-19T14:50:49","date_gmt":"2011-10-19T18:50:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=31018"},"modified":"2020-06-28T14:51:00","modified_gmt":"2020-06-28T18:51:00","slug":"mildly-perturbed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=31018","title":{"rendered":"Mildly perturbed"},"content":{"rendered":"

Lately, I\u2019ve been a little irritable.\u00a0 A little bit of it has to do with daily nuisances that come with having several pets in the home, and a significantly large bit has to do with a scenario that could be really good or really bad, depending on what happens in the process. Regardless, it\u2019s filled with the unknown, and I don\u2019t really like too much of the unknown right in front of me.<\/span><\/p>\n

More of it has to do with a lot of the anxiety of the unknown that stands in front of me this weekend, as I will embark on an adventure to prove my capabilities in surviving a simulated zombie apocalypse, when I challenge\u00a0Run For Your Lives<\/a>. I don\u2019t know what to expect, and this concerns me, because I\u2019m a very competitive person, and I want very much to succeed at \u201csurviving\u201d the run.\u00a0 More unknown, and it has me a little on edge.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I\u2019ve been training diligently since I signed up back in late-July, running twice a day when I can afford it, as well as being a little more conscientious about some of my less-healthy eating indulgences. Even still, until I know what I\u2019m up against, no amount of training is adequate, and I\u2019m probably unprepared for what lies ahead. With a litany of obstacles and road blocks promised, on top of the zombie chasers, I don\u2019t know what to expect.<\/span><\/p>\n

The weather has turned unpleasant as of yesterday, and I\u2019m concerned about it affecting the weekend. The event is rain or shine, but I\u2019d rather it not be sucky while I\u2019m up in Baltimore. The temperature has dropped noticeably, and it\u2019s been raining.\u00a0 I\u2019ll perform no matter the circumstances, but I can\u2019t trust others to be in optimum health as well, and I sure as shit don\u2019t want to get sick and get pneumonia or something running through cold rain.<\/span><\/p>\n

This morning was a pure laugher.\u00a0 I went outside with the dogs, and it wasn\u2019t raining; it was damp outside, but the concrete was dry, so all signs said it was good running conditions.\u00a0 I changed and left the house, but as soon as my foot touched asphalt, it began to drizzle.\u00a0 Drizzle isn\u2019t enough to stop me, so I went, but mid-way through my run, it began to pour, and I had no choice but to suck it up and finish my run while getting rained on, souring my mood.<\/span><\/p>\n

Despite being in somewhat reasonable distance in fuckingMaryland, I won\u2019t be seeing my parents or some of my friends this weekend.\u00a0 By no fault of anyone else in mind, I\u2019m kind of a solo act this weekend, and that kind of bums me out.\u00a0 My friend whom I was going to share a room with in Aberdeen, instead of driving for two hours to NOVA isn\u2019t going to make it up, because he was rejected as a zombie volunteer despite having registered months before closing.\u00a0 Everyone I\u2019ve asked if they would be interested in filling the vacancy has legitimate and understandable reasons why they can\u2019t, and I\u2019m not mad at any of them, but it really sucks knowing that I\u2019ll be lodging by myself in Bumfuck, fuckingMaryland for two likely boring nights.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know I\u2019m not going to be doing this run on my own, but in a way, I am. Sometimes I can\u2019t help but feel that the general enthusiasm for the event is way lower than I was expecting. There will be others I enjoy the company of there, but it will still be a solo act. Maybe it\u2019s the weather, and\/or maybe others are having the same anxiety of the unknown as I am having. The process in which my brother was denied participation has certainly put a black mark on my opinion of the event before it has even happened.\u00a0 I\u2019m sure if I succeed and have fun, it will be the best event evar, but heading into it, I feel less enthused as I once was for it all, and it kind of irritates me. Needless to say, I just want the event to come, and I want to get it done, to put a lot of these unknowns behind me already.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Lately, I\u2019ve been a little irritable.\u00a0 A little bit of it has to do with daily nuisances that come with having several pets in the home, and a significantly large bit has to do with a scenario that could be really good or really bad, depending on what happens in the process. Regardless, it\u2019s filled … Continue reading Mildly perturbed<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,15,32,65,145],"class_list":["post-31018","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-og","tag-running","tag-travel","tag-zbs"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31018","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=31018"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31018\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":31019,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31018\/revisions\/31019"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=31018"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=31018"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=31018"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}