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I think any of my zero readers might have been able to tell through tone and topic, especially in these dad brogs, that parenthood has been challenging throughout the last year or so.\u00a0 Two kids at their ages in the conditions we are in societally, have taken their toll on me, and I\u2019ll be the first to admit that since the start of COVID which coincided almost perfectly with the birth of #1 have put me into a bubble that I often struggle to get out of and it\u2019s up for debate on whether or not I\u2019m even out of it at all.<\/span><\/p>\n I know that I\u2019ve struggled tremendously with keeping my cool, and that I will never accept the perceived shortcomings of the rest of the world as being the norm now, as reasons for my mental wellbeing, or lack of it.\u00a0 I\u2019m extremely irritable, little makes me happy, I struggle to enjoy just about anything and I\u2019ve basically forgotten how to live for myself because so much of my life is spent being a parent and taking care of just about everything but myself.<\/span><\/p>\n It\u2019s hard for me to really let go of things and unwind, when I\u2019m constantly in this state of feeling overworked and taken for granted.\u00a0 That if I don\u2019t do things, things don\u2019t get done, at work or at home, and that there are many instances where if the result of me taking any sort of time off is just a backlog of bullshit for me to have to deal with when I get back, then I question having taken it in the first place.<\/span><\/p>\n The last few trips I\u2019ve taken with my family have been challenging, because two kids as young as my own are a tremendous handful and I\u2019m always trying to be cognizant of their safety and wellbeing to the point where I can\u2019t enjoy myself at any point.\u00a0 Any time I am afforded to have to unwind always feels inadequate and too short and I\u2019m left wondering why bother, like an ungrateful ingrate.<\/span><\/p>\n Regardless, what this all amounts to is the very obvious need for me to have some time away from dad mode, even if it\u2019s on my own.\u00a0 An opportunity to where I can not be a dad for a few days and try and hope to unwind and relax and recharge just a little bit.\u00a0 Stare at a walls or screens and not have to worry about clocks or the schedules of other people for a few days.\u00a0 Let other people feed my kids and hope that they don\u2019t fall victim to their pickiness and that it\u2019s really just dada\u2019s shitty cooking they\u2019re tired of and not really hating things.\u00a0 Not being the only one cleaning my house on a nightly basis, preparing for the next day when it all has to get done all over again.\u00a0 Go to sleep with no alarms on, and hope I can actually stay asleep for at least eight hours.<\/span><\/p>\n Yes, dada needs this little break.\u00a0 If it were any more overdue, it would have already been fully foreclosed upon, and being prepared for demolition and the property already sold to CubeSmart.<\/span><\/p>\n And in true burned out dada fashion, I slept through my morning alarm to get to the airport, and if not for the Lyft driver to call me at 5 am to ask me where I was, I probably would\u2019ve fucked everything up and everything would\u2019ve been 690% worse.<\/span><\/p>\n Better believe I tipped my driver well this morning.\u00a0 Here\u2019s hoping the rest of my weekend will be successful.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I think any of my zero readers might have been able to tell through tone and topic, especially in these dad brogs, that parenthood has been challenging throughout the last year or so.\u00a0 Two kids at their ages in the conditions we are in societally, have taken their toll on me, and I\u2019ll be the … Continue reading Dad brog (#103): Dad\u2019s solo blow off 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