{"id":28594,"date":"2011-04-05T21:45:07","date_gmt":"2011-04-06T01:45:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=28594"},"modified":"2020-06-25T21:45:17","modified_gmt":"2020-06-26T01:45:17","slug":"a-little-bit-of-reality","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=28594","title":{"rendered":"A little bit of reality"},"content":{"rendered":"

I seldom write about my family.\u00a0 It\u2019s not that it\u2019s because I don\u2019t love them or anything, because that couldn\u2019t be any further from the truth.\u00a0 I don\u2019t really know why I don\u2019t, it\u2019s not like their lives aren\u2019t mind-numbingly boring either.\u00a0 It\u2019s just, I don\u2019t really write about my family.\u00a0 I suppose my family life is something I\u2019d rather keep out of my writing, and that there are more interesting or attempted humorous things to write about instead.<\/span><\/p>\n

To cut to the chase, and what\u2019s been ill-timely, eating at my mind for the last few days is that my parents are debating on separating.\u00a0 An actual legal divorce is probably unlikely, since neither of them would genuinely want to engage in the very American act of having to go through the work to make it happen when instead, my dad could just simply move out.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019d like to think that as I near 30, news like this would be a bit easier to digest than at a volatile teenager\u2019s age, but I\u2019m finding out witnessing my own emotions and thoughts, that it\u2019s still not any less thrilling.\u00a0 I suppose I can rationalize both parties better than if I were a kid, and I won\u2019t be trying to blame myself for anything, but I\u2019m still feeling a bit upset by the circumstances.<\/span><\/p>\n

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My parents were an arranged marriage, so at the very consolation, it\u2019s not like they probably were ever genuinely in love at any point in their lives, to where they tragically\u00a0fell out of love<\/em>\u00a0in recent years; it\u2019s not something I\u2019ll probably ever know, nor really aspire to find out directly from either party.\u00a0 I grew up somewhat of a mama\u2019s boy, so I\u2019m fairly certain I know where I\u2019d instinctually go to visit whenever I go up to Virginia, and my relationship with my dad has always been somewhat tumultuous growing up; not the least bit hostile, but just simply distanced. \u00a0I thought was getting better in recent years, which apparently doesn\u2019t seem to be the case, seeing as how this is all hitting me out of the blue.<\/span><\/p>\n

The story is that my dad\u2019s unhappy.\u00a0 It\u2019s selfish of me to not wish this separation, so that I didn\u2019t have to exert the effort of visiting two parental units instead of the luxury of just going into one home, and seeing both of them, especially at the sake of his happiness.\u00a0 Ultimately, whatever my dad wants to do, he is free to do, and it\u2019s my choice that it\u2019s what I\u2019d want him to do, if that\u2019s what would make him happiest.\u00a0 But even as push towards 30, it still saddens me the thought of them going their separate ways, and knowing that now I\u2019m yet another person in the United States with loveless, separated parents.<\/span><\/p>\n

The worst part about all of this?\u00a0 Neither my mom or my dad has any idea that I know about this.\u00a0 Neither my mom or my dad has spoken to me about any of this.\u00a0 All of this information that I have now, I heard from my sister.\u00a0 Being the youngest in the family, apparently, I\u2019m still being walked around on eggshells, and being kept in the dark about this whole situation.\u00a0 My sister implores me to try to talk my dad out of it, which I know would probably be a futile effort, since neither of my parents genuinely listen to any advice I have, when I have it for them.\u00a0 Regardless, such an effort is kind of difficult to initiate when I haven\u2019t even been informed about any of this in the first place.<\/span><\/p>\n

I could call them up, and take the initiative, but honestly, I really just don\u2019t want to.\u00a0 I don\u2019t feel like speaking to them at the moment, but they\u2019re more than welcome to call and shoot the shit if they choose to.\u00a0 Lately, as juvenile as this may sound, I\u2019m a little irritated with the preceding-generational grown-ups in my life right now, and would rather selfishly concentrate on my own fucking mundane, with sprinkles of inconveniences, life at the moment.<\/span><\/p>\n

Had to get that off my chest.\u00a0 Either it\u2019s really bothering me to become brog-worthy, or I\u2019m out of rainy-day drafts that I could easily post.\u00a0 Your choice.\u00a0 Regardless, back to the regularly scheduled program.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I seldom write about my family.\u00a0 It\u2019s not that it\u2019s because I don\u2019t love them or anything, because that couldn\u2019t be any further from the truth.\u00a0 I don\u2019t really know why I don\u2019t, it\u2019s not like their lives aren\u2019t mind-numbingly boring either.\u00a0 It\u2019s just, I don\u2019t really write about my family.\u00a0 I suppose my family … Continue reading A little bit of reality<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[71,15,4],"class_list":["post-28594","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-famiry","tag-og","tag-programming"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28594","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28594"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28594\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28595,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28594\/revisions\/28595"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28594"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28594"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28594"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}