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So over the weekend, my birthday came and went, and now I\u2019m 32 years old, and really don\u2019t feel that much different.\u00a0 There\u2019s still the same general concerns about life, and how it occasionally feels like I have no general direction, which admittedly makes me feel a little blue, but when the day is over, I\u2019ve still got it going fairly adequate as far as life\u2019s necessities go.<\/span><\/p>\n In regards to my birthday party itself, I actually celebrated it a day earlier, due to the fact that something else came up on my actual birthday itself, and as far as I was concerned, it kind of took a little bit of a load off my back in trying to figure out something to do on my actual birthday.\u00a0 However, I ended up getting stupid sloppy drunk because I\u2019m clearly very dumb, and when people kept buying me shots, I kept drinking them, but worse off, continuing to drink beer after beer on my own tab.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Although everyone there claims that I wasn\u2019t pissing anyone off or anything, I still look back at that night with a sense of embarrassment in my drunken stupor.\u00a0 I\u2019m very much an affectionate drunk from what I understand, so I get a little hug-happy when on the sauce, partially because I can hardly stand on my own two feet, either.\u00a0 I guess what it\u2019s boiling down to is that I think I want to make a better effort in the future, that if I\u2019m going to be doing any drinking, to limit it to one or the other; it\u2019s not like I had a college white girl hangover or anything the morning after, but I\u2019m pretty sure if I stuck to just shots or stuck to just beer, things might have been less embarrassing to feel about.<\/span><\/p>\n Such idea was quickly justified when on my actual birthday, I stuck to just beer, and despite the fact that I felt as bloated as an episode of\u00a0Roseanne<\/em>\u00a0talking about menstrual cycles from as much as I had been drinking, but I had nothing more than a pleasant buzz to where I could maintain focused eyesight, coherent conversation, and the ability to walk fairly steadily.<\/span><\/p>\n Regardless of how I blue I may be feeling today, I still am pleased with how my birthday turned out.\u00a0 I\u2019m happy for all the people that came out for me when I wanted to celebrate it, and it\u2019s nice to know that in spite of all my personal hangups and personality quirks, there are people who think I\u2019m decent enough to hang with on my whim.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u2019m pretty sure the blue feeling is mostly because that with my birthday now a thing of the past, I\u2019m in that awkward moment in time to where I\u2019m not quite sure what to look forward to next, because I believe I\u2019m just one of those people that just needs to always have something to be looking forward to, to keep me driven forward with life.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" So over the weekend, my birthday came and went, and now I\u2019m 32 years old, and really don\u2019t feel that much different.\u00a0 There\u2019s still the same general concerns about life, and how it occasionally feels like I have no general direction, which admittedly makes me feel a little blue, but when the day is over, … Continue reading Ramblings of a now 32-year old child<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[67,97,56,73,15],"class_list":["post-38937","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-birthday","tag-booze","tag-food","tag-friends","tag-og"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38937","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=38937"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38937\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":38939,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38937\/revisions\/38939"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=38937"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=38937"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=38937"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}