{"id":39562,"date":"2014-08-12T10:23:47","date_gmt":"2014-08-12T14:23:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=39562"},"modified":"2020-07-13T10:23:57","modified_gmt":"2020-07-13T14:23:57","slug":"the-door-is-ajar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=39562","title":{"rendered":"The door is ajar"},"content":{"rendered":"

Admittedly, I\u2019ve had a hard time finding the motivation to write lately, which sucks a little bit more considering my general desire to have at least a post every weekday.\u00a0 It\u2019s been somewhat challenging on some days, but given the fact that there are about 17-18 waking hours of each day, usually something piques my interest, or a thought pops into my head that is adequate enough to get the words flowing.<\/span><\/p>\n

The thing is right now, I\u2019m apparently using a lot of my concentration these days in preparation for Dragon*Con, which as of the time I\u2019m writing this is a hair over two weeks away.\u00a0 This isn\u2019t something that should be the least bit worrisome for your average attendee, but being one of\u00a0those<\/em>\u00a0weirdoes that likes to have a costume for D*C means that two weeks isn\u2019t so much a chunk of time we\u2019re wishing to erode faster, contrarily, we\u2019re wishing we had more of it.<\/span><\/p>\n

Needless to say, I\u2019m trying my hardest to not let the thoughts of doubt creep into my psyche, and make me feel like I\u2019ve got an insurmountable boulder to drag up the hill.\u00a0 I do feel as if I\u2019m making some decent progress, in spite of the fact that I\u2019ve had an immensely difficult time in getting the wheels turning over the summer, and in all frankness I shouldn\u2019t be in this situation had I gotten my ass in gear at an earlier time.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Regardless, a large part of the apathy and unwillingness to start has a lot to do with the fact that it just doesn\u2019t feel like my heart is in it this year.\u00a0 It\u2019s not to say that I\u2019m not looking forward to D*C this year, quite the contrary, but it does feel like the mood going into it, as far as my own little world and its subsequent social circles are concerned, isn\u2019t as excited or anticipatory as it\u2019s been in prior years.<\/span><\/p>\n

Numerous people I know are bowing out of this year, are not planning on going next year, declaring this year \u201cthe last,\u201d and other things that are kind of tapping the brakes on the annual ride going into the event.\u00a0 Obviously, a lot of the circumstances are logical, as are rationales for passing in the future, but it doesn\u2019t not curb the enthusiasm just a little bit for those of us who are still going this year, and planning on it in the future, too.<\/span><\/p>\n

I get it too; D*C is expensive, time-consuming, and for those like me who like to make things for them, way more involved than just Labor Day weekend.\u00a0 A ton of money goes into hotels, and for those who don\u2019t have the luxury of being local (which is something I don\u2019t take for granted, either), the travel is too.\u00a0 And ultimately, for what?\u00a0 A weekend being crammed like sardines in a can into three hotels, where space to stretch your arms is a luxury, a lot of abrasive internet nerds bringing the obnoxious into the real world, and basically hanging out with 50,000 like-minded people.<\/span><\/p>\n

Personally, I have little interest in convention programming, and prefer to simply walk around and take advantage of the mass conglomeration of costumes and other creativity, while honing my novice picture taking skills to the best that I can.\u00a0 Seems like a pretty resource-exhausting activity just to hang out and take pictures.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I still do it, and I still look forward to it, and as far as I\u2019m concerned, barring a catastrophic time this year, such would be the case for next year and the future as well.<\/span><\/p>\n

The point of this post is basically that in spite of the fact that there doesn\u2019t seem to be nearly as much excitement and anticipation going into this year\u2019s D*C, I\u2019m personally still looking forward to the weekend, and the pursuit of constructing a costume is literally consuming the vast majority of my mental capacities in a race against time on top of it all.<\/span><\/p>\n

That being said, unless I stumble across the right sources of inspiration that really stimulate writing, don\u2019t be surprised if there\u2019s more, almost rushed-feeling text-only posts until the event passes.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Admittedly, I\u2019ve had a hard time finding the motivation to write lately, which sucks a little bit more considering my general desire to have at least a post every weekday.\u00a0 It\u2019s been somewhat challenging on some days, but given the fact that there are about 17-18 waking hours of each day, usually something piques my … Continue reading The door is ajar<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,79,107,15],"class_list":["post-39562","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-cashmoney","tag-dragoncon","tag-og"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39562","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=39562"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39562\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":39563,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39562\/revisions\/39563"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=39562"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=39562"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=39562"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}