{"id":42051,"date":"2015-12-23T11:47:28","date_gmt":"2015-12-23T15:47:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=42051"},"modified":"2020-07-18T11:47:41","modified_gmt":"2020-07-18T15:47:41","slug":"when-you-feel-bad-that-nothing-bad-is-happening-to-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=42051","title":{"rendered":"When you feel bad that nothing bad is happening to you"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Seems like I\u2019m not the only one out there.<\/em><\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

When things get busy, I tend to make lists.\u00a0 Be it on a Post-It, notepad documents, or on Notes on my phone, when there are a lot of things to do, I make lists.\u00a0 Because one, it keeps me organized and remembering all of the things that I need to do, and two, it feels really nice and accomplishing when you\u2019re able to cross things off, highlight and clear lines of text, or delete a Note.\u00a0 It makes me feel happy when I knock things off a list and feel a sense of accomplishment.<\/span><\/p>\n

With Christmas looming, I made a list of things that I needed to do on my car, prior to the holiday.\u00a0 The oil was long overdue, subsequently the air filter was gross and needed replacement, and my car\u2019s at the age where all the bulbs seem to be burning out one after another.\u00a0 Pretty much in one 24-hour span, I\u2019ve gotten the oil changed, the air filter changed (myself, saving $20 in exorbitant \u201clabor\u201d), and replaced three burnt-out light bulbs.\u00a0 For all intents and purposes, I feel very studious and accomplished at my productivity, and should worry less about driving my car anywhere for the next few months.<\/span><\/p>\n

In fact, on the overall list of things that I needed to do before Christmas, I\u2019ve systematically completed almost 90% of the things originally listed.\u00a0 \u201cBathe dog\u201d and \u201cfinish X\u201d are the last things left that I\u2019m aware of.\u00a0 I do feel accomplished, and pretty good that the remaining things are manageable and well within sight.<\/span><\/p>\n

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But I\u2019m not really that happy right now.\u00a0 I probably could be happy, given the fact that it\u2019s the holiday season, things for me personally are going pretty decently, minus a little bit of disgruntled feeling with work, but such could be said about just about anyone.\u00a0 My Christmas shopping is all but complete, everything\u2019s wrapped, plans are made, and I\u2019ve been productive and accomplishing the last few weeks.\u00a0 I have plenty of reason why I could be happy, but I just am not feeling it.<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s mostly because that around me, in my little world, there are several people who are going through some really rough times lately.\u00a0 Naturally, I will not get into specifics, but lately, it\u2019s hard to feel a little apprehensive whenever I hear my phone go off, because I\u2019m worried that there will be a text message with bad news, or saying \u201chello?\u201d might be greeted by voices that have obviously been shedding recent tears.<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s hard to truly feel happy when to people like me, happiness is often predicated on the happiness and well-being of others.\u00a0 I\u2019m not sure if this normal, or if this just human nature for empathetic people like me, but it kind of stinks that there are people around me that are having some rough times, and I feel helpless and powerless to be able to help any of them.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m not saying that I\u2019m resentful for people for not being happier, for the sake of my own happiness, but I guess I\u2019m just hoping that better news comes to all people I\u2019m thinking about, because then maybe we can all be happy together if and when it hopefully comes.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When things get busy, I tend to make lists.\u00a0 Be it on a Post-It, notepad documents, or on Notes on my phone, when there are a lot of things to do, I make lists.\u00a0 Because one, it keeps me organized and remembering all of the things that I need to do, and two, it feels … Continue reading When you feel bad that nothing bad is happening to you<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,15],"class_list":["post-42051","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-og"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42051","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=42051"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42051\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":42053,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42051\/revisions\/42053"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=42051"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=42051"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=42051"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}