{"id":42629,"date":"2016-08-31T12:03:57","date_gmt":"2016-08-31T16:03:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=42629"},"modified":"2020-07-23T12:04:08","modified_gmt":"2020-07-23T16:04:08","slug":"vacations-and-relaxation-are-hard-for-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=42629","title":{"rendered":"Vacations and relaxation are hard for me"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m not one to often broadcast my vacation plans, but let\u2019s be real here, my brog has been down so long, that there\u2019s absolutely no concern that some mysterious anonymous seventh reader of mine that cyber-stalks me is going to get wind of me not being home, break into my house and steal all my wrestling belts.\u00a0 I\u2019m literally hoarding a folder full of Word documents of the ever-growing backlog of brog posts that I have every intention of back filling when, or if, my brog ever comes back online.<\/span><\/p>\n

Me salty?\u00a0 Nahhhhh<\/span><\/p>\n

Anyway, it\u2019s not often that I write off the cuff without a general subject, topic or impetus to vomit words.\u00a0 But I knew that I would probably want to write some diatribe before I got on a plane, fly across the Atlantic and try to find some rest, relaxation and exploration in parts of the world I never thought I\u2019d actually go to.<\/span><\/p>\n

Much to the doubts of mythical gf, I actually am excited about this trip, planned a year in advance.\u00a0 But my excitement oftentimes manifests itself in a variety of anxiety at the things I\u2019m leaving behind, as well as a bewilderment of the things planned ahead of me.\u00a0 Otherwise, I like to think I\u2019m a pretty grounded guy that doesn\u2019t show like Nintendo 64 Kid<\/a> levels of excitement, about anything.<\/span><\/p>\n

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But that\u2019s the thing, I\u2019m clearly a worrier, I feel more so than I have been in the past, and frankly, I really don\u2019t like it that much.\u00a0 At least to this degree.\u00a0 But I feel like I\u2019ve got lots of things to worry about, often times swirling around thoughts of the future, in various intervals, but then there\u2019s the usual litany of common suspects, like money and expenditures I should expect to have to fork over in the more immediate times.\u00a0 I worry about the safety of my home when I\u2019m away for lengthy periods of time, and I worry about my dog who\u2019s getting older and whose health might show some glimpses of deterioration, potentially.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how to turn it off, and I feel that it inhibits my ability to truly relax and mellow out sometimes.\u00a0 I\u2019m tired of worrying, and it feels like there\u2019s not a lot of control over the things that I often worry about, which leads to additional angst about it all.<\/span><\/p>\n

Despite the fact that one of the big points of this trip was a guerilla means to avoid Dragon*con and force ourselves to skip it lest we grow tempted and go anyway, I\u2019ll admit I was feeling a little melancholy, when I started to see my theFacebook start to blow up with people exclaiming their excitement about it.\u00a0 The con itself I don\u2019t have any qualms with skipping, because I don\u2019t really feel like dropping another $1,300 to stay in my own city and accomplish nothing, but the people that I\u2019m quite fond of that will be going to it, missing them does suck.\u00a0 And when I attempted to convey this message on my own theFacebook, it took all of a few hours before I regretted it, making me really hate social media all over again, further pushing me into an angsty mindset.<\/span><\/p>\n

Perhaps these are all signs that this vacation that I\u2019m about to embark on is truly needed.\u00a0 And that when I get on a big ass boat in the Adriatic Sea and set sail towards new places and new experiences, I\u2019ll find the ability to be able to take a deep breath and relax again.\u00a0 If anything at all, there\u2019s a shitload of wine on the agenda that might help mellow me out.<\/span><\/p>\n

And in itself, it\u2019s why I believe that relaxation and vacations are truly skills.\u00a0 Skills that I am most definitely not a natural in, or perhaps I\u2019m just the kind of busy-body type that needs to have some stress in order to maintain sharp and vigil towards what the world has planned.<\/span><\/p>\n

Admittedly, this is one of those instances where writing about my thoughts has genuinely helped clear my head of some of the mental cobwebs that have been spidered around in my belfry the last week or so.\u00a0\u00a0 I don\u2019t want to worry so much about things, but such is kind of impossible for my type of personality.\u00a0 However, I need to have faith that things will be okay in my absence, and that I genuinely have a great opportunity in front of me.<\/span><\/p>\n

This vacation is going to be awesome, and I have all the faith in the world that it will accomplish everything it set to accomplish when it was planned last year.\u00a0 Instead of being steamed alive in the human saunas of two hotels, I\u2019ll be sailing on a gigantic boat, hopefully with the taste of fresh sea air blowing through the sky.\u00a0 Instead of trying to take shitty pictures of Jon Snows and Khaleesis, I\u2019ll be exploring the actual King\u2019s Landing and Meereen, when docking in Dubrovnik.<\/span><\/p>\n

And when the day is over, I\u2019ll have visited four countries that I\u2019d never thought I\u2019d actually visit any time soon, and I\u2019ll feel justified that I\u2019m actually doing something with my life and getting out and exploring, while I still am capable of doing so.<\/span><\/p>\n

There, I feel better already.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m not one to often broadcast my vacation plans, but let\u2019s be real here, my brog has been down so long, that there\u2019s absolutely no concern that some mysterious anonymous seventh reader of mine that cyber-stalks me is going to get wind of me not being home, break into my house and steal all my … Continue reading Vacations and relaxation are hard for me<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,107,73,177,156,166],"class_list":["post-42629","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-dragoncon","tag-friends","tag-mythical","tag-social-media","tag-vacation"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42629","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=42629"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42629\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":42630,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42629\/revisions\/42630"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=42629"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=42629"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=42629"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}