{"id":44342,"date":"2017-01-09T21:59:11","date_gmt":"2017-01-10T01:59:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=44342"},"modified":"2020-07-29T21:59:22","modified_gmt":"2020-07-30T01:59:22","slug":"i-really-dont-feel-like-writing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=44342","title":{"rendered":"I really don\u2019t feel like writing"},"content":{"rendered":"

Therefore, I am making myself write, because it\u2019s the times that you don\u2019t want to do something are the times in which you have to do them, otherwise a downward spiral of failure becomes eminent.\u00a0 Don\u2019t feel like exercising?\u00a0 Prepare to have to budget for some larger clothes, fatass.\u00a0 Don\u2019t feel like cooking?\u00a0 Prepare to have to budget for some larger clothes, lazy. Don\u2019t feel like working?\u00a0 Prepare to have to update your resume when you get shitcanned; and budget for larger clothes when you inevitably start to eat out of depression.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t want to have to budget for larger clothing because I don\u2019t feel like writing, and it will depress me, and then I\u2019ll resort to food.\u00a0 Everything resorts to food, seemingly.\u00a0 Food is wonderful, and I\u2019m fascinated just how often people turn heel on food on shows like My 600 lb. Life<\/em> on TLC, blaming a wonderful thing for why they\u2019re so fat and useless.\u00a0 It\u2019s worse than people turning heel on Ronda Rousey, because she lost her return fight, and now suddenly she\u2019s an overrated has been that everyone has hated for a long time because of some controversial statements she made about homosexuality that have nothing to do with her body of work as a mixed martial artist.<\/span><\/p>\n

The thing is, a lot of people wanted to believe that when the arbitrary change from 2016 to 2017 occurred, things would miraculously start getting better, more optimistic.\u00a0 Sure, I don\u2019t buy into it, but I didn\u2019t want to be one of those assholes who bemoaned the entire practice and shit on peoples\u2019 mechanisms to remain optimistic and have hope, but it turns out that as far as my own little world is concerned, things don\u2019t really seem to be getting much better.\u00a0 Those around me are still going through some rough patches, testing their morale, resolve and their strength, and my family is still in disarray and no matter how much talking and mediating I try to do, still looks to be on a path to a worst possible situation.<\/span><\/p>\n

Honestly, because I\u2019m apparently so empathetic towards the woes of those around me, it\u2019s difficult to go on with my relatively simple life knowing others are grieving and dealing with bad things in their lives, and despite the fact that I just said my life is relatively simple, the problems that I do have myself aren\u2019t necessarily small ones.\u00a0 That being said, there are times in which I feel like I\u2019m being stretched pretty hard in numerous directions, and it\u2019s when I feel the most powerless at being able to cope and help and deal, that I feel the brunt of emotional distress bordering at the potential for some depression.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Admittedly, I\u2019m a little exasperated with feeling this way, but if there ever was a light at the end of the tunnel is that I think that everything that I\u2019m going through has a definitive end and a time limit.\u00a0 And once everything is behind me, I am optimistic that things will become better in my life, and perhaps I will be able to really focus on advancing my own life on a positive path, instead of feeling like everything is kind of stagnant and in limbo.<\/span><\/p>\n

However for now, I\u2019m getting tired of feeling like there\u2019s never any time and that there are too many things to do, and too much work and effort that need to be exerted.\u00a0 I still have things from months ago that I still haven\u2019t caught up to, and that only compounds in my frustration.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m like two more obligations away from a Jessie Spano<\/a>, minus the speed.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Therefore, I am making myself write, because it\u2019s the times that you don\u2019t want to do something are the times in which you have to do them, otherwise a downward spiral of failure becomes eminent.\u00a0 Don\u2019t feel like exercising?\u00a0 Prepare to have to budget for some larger clothes, fatass.\u00a0 Don\u2019t feel like cooking?\u00a0 Prepare to … Continue reading I really don\u2019t feel like writing<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,71],"class_list":["post-44342","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-famiry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44342","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=44342"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44342\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":44343,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44342\/revisions\/44343"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=44342"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=44342"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=44342"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}