{"id":46638,"date":"2019-08-16T16:16:46","date_gmt":"2019-08-16T20:16:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=46638"},"modified":"2020-08-11T16:17:03","modified_gmt":"2020-08-11T20:17:03","slug":"welp-that-didnt-take-long","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=46638","title":{"rendered":"Welp, that didn\u2019t take long"},"content":{"rendered":"

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This is one of those times where I\u2019m actually glad that my site is still offline.\u00a0 And even if it were online, this isn\u2019t something that I would post immediately, and would keep this one a draft until the coast is clear.\u00a0 Normally that\u2019s kind of against the general idea of brogging, but there are special circumstances and exceptions in which I am more than willing to bend the rules with.<\/span><\/p>\n

But if the post\u2019s image isn\u2019t the biggest hint in the world, let\u2019s just go ahead and put it out in text:<\/span><\/p>\n

My wife and I are going to have a baby.<\/span><\/p>\n

Still feels a little weird and a bit amazing to having typed those words out in front of me, but there it is.\u00a0 My wife is pregnant; I\u2019ve never been keen on the idea of couples who use the royal \u201cwe\u201d when referring to announcing a pregnancy, because let\u2019s be real here, the woman is the only one who has to deal with all the physical burden of the whole process, so it\u2019s her pregnancy, while I am the schlub who will do anything and everything I can for her while going through it.<\/span><\/p>\n

She\u2019s going to be a mom, and I\u2019m going to be a dad.\u00a0 An \uc5c4\ub9c8 and an \uc544\ube60.\u00a0 Together, our brand-new family is going to be getting just a little bit bigger.<\/span><\/p>\n

God damn, that didn\u2019t take long at all.\u00a0 Kids were never off the table between the two of us, and I always imagined that I would have at least one kid in my lifetime, but damn I didn\u2019t realize we\u2019d succeed at getting this plan off the ground barely two months after the wedding.\u00a0 Sure, we knew what could happen once the safety net was removed, but I guess both of us didn\u2019t realize that we\u2019d be this<\/em> expedient at getting the project launched.<\/span><\/p>\n

I mean, I love efficiency as much as the next control freak, but damn.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Honestly, at the time I\u2019m writing this, I\u2019m still this confused jumble of emotions.\u00a0 There\u2019s a whole lot of excitement, a lot of fear and concern, a little bit of shock that this is actually becoming a reality, and as I said, mostly a lot of confusion.\u00a0 My mind jumps around to being concerned over things that are months and years in the future, but then talks itself back to the present where everything is still fairly normal and just between my wife and I, and not wife and I and baby.\u00a0 But then I get guilty for not considering the situation and then it all kind of starts over and repeats perpetually.<\/span><\/p>\n

There\u2019s always worries about money, whether there\u2019s enough of it, and the tumultuous world we live in, and the kind of busted-up America in which we\u2019d be raising a child.\u00a0 But I think the thing that has me feeling the most anxious is the notion that when the kid arrives, is the sheer lifetime time commitment that it\u2019s going to become, and the selfish part of me that wonders just how much of life is going to change, and the general fear of the unknown that inevitably is on the way.<\/span><\/p>\n

Also, as much as I love my parents, they were pretty stereotypically Asian in the sense that they worked so much that they were very absent from a lot of my sister and I\u2019s lives growing up, and I have conversations with myself in my own head a lot about how I don\u2019t want to be like that, and I have fears that I might be if I\u2019m not always on guard to prevent it from happening.<\/span><\/p>\n

Either way, I write all this with optimism in my heart, amidst all the fanatical bewilderment going on in there at the same time.\u00a0 Lately, I feel like there are always tears at the ready just behind my eyeballs, and I\u2019m not sure what\u2019s specifically causing them to be there, and I really want to speak to lots of my friends who are dads and pick their brains to what this is all going to be like, but as my wife and I agreed, this knowledge and this post won\u2019t see the light of day for a little while.<\/span><\/p>\n

I can\u2019t promise that the brog won\u2019t turn into some adventures in new parenting chronicle, but I always try to remain cognizant of riding one topic too long or too often, and try to police myself to keep topics and posts varying in subjects and tones.\u00a0 But it\u2019s not like I\u2019ve ever had more than like six readers at any point, so it\u2019s probably not going to be that big of a deal if things sway into the direction of my life\u2019s transformation from being a weirdo loner into becoming a weirdo husband and father.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This is one of those times where I\u2019m actually glad that my site is still offline.\u00a0 And even if it were online, this isn\u2019t something that I would post immediately, and would keep this one a draft until the coast is clear.\u00a0 Normally that\u2019s kind of against the general idea of brogging, but there are … Continue reading Welp, that didn\u2019t take long<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[193,71,192,158,52],"class_list":["post-46638","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-dad","tag-famiry","tag-kids","tag-milestone","tag-owned"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46638","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46638"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46638\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46640,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46638\/revisions\/46640"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46638"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46638"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46638"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}