{"id":47255,"date":"2020-09-01T23:03:05","date_gmt":"2020-09-02T03:03:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47255"},"modified":"2020-09-01T23:04:18","modified_gmt":"2020-09-02T03:04:18","slug":"i-wonder-if-i-need-therapy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47255","title":{"rendered":"I wonder if I need therapy"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Easy set up aside, I\u2019m not trying to be funny at the moment.\u00a0 Over the last few days, and dealing with the clown of a handyman who has for the lack of better term, fucked me, I haven\u2019t been dealing with the frustration over it very well, and it\u2019s bleeding out in various capacities.\u00a0 As detailed, I got my glasses broken from negligence, and there have been other instances where I\u2019ve made some careless errors that were fortunately nothing too bad other than aggravation.<\/span><\/p>\n

But yesterday, since I\u2019ve decided to take it upon myself to fix the fuck ups of my shit handyman, I had an incident where I nicked my ring fingertip with my belt sander; no, it\u2019s nothing severe, but some blood was drawn, and it was in a terribly inconvenient place that made typing competently near impossible until I procured some appropriate fingertip Band Aids, which is how I\u2019m back at the keys writing this right now.\u00a0 You never realize how much a single finger comes into play with an assortment of daily activities until it\u2019s put on injured reserve.<\/span><\/p>\n

In all honesty, the meme above, about the try not to cry, but then cry a lot?\u00a0 That\u2019s kind of how I\u2019ve felt on and off throughout this past week, and I\u2019m feeling very mentally vulnerable right now.\u00a0 I\u2019m not sure if this is just extremely poor stress management, perhaps this is quarantining cabin fever manifesting in emotional instability?\u00a0 Maybe it\u2019s the anxiety of knowing I feel like the first three weeks of my paternity leave has vanished in the blink of an eye and now I\u2019m on the downward slope of going back to work sooner rather than later.\u00a0 My dog is also acting a little strange, which isn\u2019t helping, because I already feel like a shitty enough neglectful owner because baby comes ahead of everything, but at least he\u2019s getting his meals and routine bathroom breaks and not locked in his crate eight hours a day like when I was in the office.<\/span><\/p>\n

Or maybe it\u2019s all of the above, and it\u2019s an amalgamation of factors leading me to feeling like maybe I need some professional help to help me make sense of why I\u2019m in such a mentally turrible state lately.<\/span><\/p>\n

And no matter how much I talk to myself about how I really shouldn\u2019t be in this much of a funk, here I am.\u00a0 I have my health, I have a stable job, in spite of some recent angst about it, I have a beautiful and loving wife who supports everything about me, and I\u2019ve got the most gorgeous and precious kid that I have the utmost luxury to be taking care of every single day right now.\u00a0 Frankly, even I don\u2019t think I should be feeling so volatile given these facts, but I just can\u2019t shake it right now.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m hoping that once I get my property back in order, I\u2019ll feel better about things, as the visual results of having been fucked will be behind me.\u00a0 But if that doesn\u2019t work, I think I may explore what my options are, and\/or see if my insurance can be of any help at all in this.\u00a0 Who really knows what\u2019s going to happen in the future, but I\u2019ve never been one against the idea of therapy, but I\u2019ve always felt like I just didn\u2019t need it, but if things can\u2019t seem to get better through all of the channels that I\u2019ve been using throughout my life so far, perhaps some professional help might not be a bad idea.<\/span><\/p>\n

I owe it to my wife, child and rest of my family and friends to be the best I can be, and not be so wrecked by stupid shit.\u00a0 Maybe a good cry is what I really do need, like in Fight Club<\/em>.\u00a0 Would probably be a lot cheaper than therapy!<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Easy set up aside, I\u2019m not trying to be funny at the moment.\u00a0 Over the last few days, and dealing with the clown of a handyman who has for the lack of better term, fucked me, I haven\u2019t been dealing with the frustration over it very well, and it\u2019s bleeding out in various capacities.\u00a0 As … Continue reading I wonder if I need therapy<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,104,121,192,105],"class_list":["post-47255","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-depression","tag-homeownership","tag-kids","tag-rage"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47255","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47255"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47255\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47257,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47255\/revisions\/47257"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47255"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47255"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47255"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}