{"id":47414,"date":"2020-11-15T15:20:56","date_gmt":"2020-11-15T20:20:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47414"},"modified":"2021-01-25T22:25:52","modified_gmt":"2021-01-26T03:25:52","slug":"new-father-brogging-026","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47414","title":{"rendered":"New Father Brogging, #026"},"content":{"rendered":"

Mythical wife and I were playing some games online with our friends because we\u2019re still very much immersed in pandemic \u2018Murica and this is how things are done these days in order to be safe, and as we\u2019re in between games, the topic of conversation goes towards what television shows everyone is watching.\u00a0 Talking about The Mandalorian<\/em> and Utopia<\/em> among other shows, and how some of us might like them, or if they\u2019re not any good at all, etc.<\/span><\/p>\n

But mythical wife and I haven\u2019t really seen or finished any of them, because we don\u2019t have time.\u00a0 Story of parenthood now.<\/span><\/p>\n

We then start talking about video games; mythical wife and I just started playing Man of Medan<\/em>, and gotten maybe three hours into the game, before we realized it was midnight which might as well have been 3 am for new parents like us, but reality sunk in that we weren\u2019t sure when the next time we\u2019d have a chance to play more of the game, because we just don\u2019t have time, the perpetual story of parenthood now.<\/span><\/p>\n

Even playing Jackbox<\/em> games with friends for an evening means not having the opportunity to do another thing that we may or may not have wanted to do with what limited free time we have available to us, because as the story of being new parents go, you just don\u2019t have much of it, because the primary meat of our time is spent raising our infant child and putting her needs first and foremost above everything else.<\/span><\/p>\n

I do not have a single iota of regret for having a child and I love my daughter more than anything else in history, but as the objective of these new dad brogs go, is to express the realities and genuine thoughts that I have going through my own personal journey as a first-time father, and the reality is that I just don\u2019t have a lot of time, like ever, for myself anymore, and that part is something that\u2019s always going to be a tough pill to swallow, especially in conjunction to our lives pre-children, where we\u2019d sometimes have nothing but time to sit around and literally do nothing at times.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Are you tired of reading new dad brogs?\u00a0 Do you miss when I\u2019d write about all of the fuck-ups and\/or hypocrisy regarding Atlanta, Georgia, or anywhere else in the world? \u00a0Pointing out racism or ineffective uses of the race card?\u00a0 How much I love the Braves but hate the Braves?\u00a0 Expending thousands of words about professional wrestling as if I didn\u2019t know that it was a scripted concept?<\/span><\/p>\n

Well, dad brogs are about all I\u2019m good for, for the time being, with anything deviating from them typically is me feeling guilty and concerned that my entire brog is going to be nothing but parenting brogs, and I really don\u2019t want that to be the case, so I force the issue sometimes to seek out things to write about that aren\u2019t necessarily just about being a new dad.\u00a0 Which in itself tends to defeat the purpose of brogging in the first place, if I\u2019m coming from places that aren\u2019t genuine to myself.<\/span><\/p>\n

Writing is one of my real hobbies that I genuinely care about, and make important that I stick with, no matter the circumstances. \u00a0But writing also requires time in order to do, the one thing that I\u2019m so very in short supply of on a regular basis, which is why much to my dismay, there are sporadic spaces of dead air in my writing routine, no matter how much I\u2019d like for that to not be the case.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I have so little spare time in my life now that it\u2019s hard to find opportunities to write, not to mention I have to be somewhat feeling motivated to do so, so it\u2019s like two constantly moving vehicles trying to find the optimal times in which they intersect when it comes to having both time and motivation to actually write.<\/span><\/p>\n

I saw this meme the other day, that was one of those \u201cI feel attacked\u201d ones, where it talked about how there are people who have so little time and get burned out by their jobs, they feel unmotivated to partake in their hobbies when they have time, but then become increasingly anxious and resentful the following days because they didn\u2019t get any me-time.\u00a0 I have to say I felt quite relatable upon seeing that as well, and it\u2019s kind of a depressing microcosm of just how many people must being going through it themselves, not to mention that raising a small human being just adds to it all, concurrently.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ultimately when the day is over, I\u2019m fairly sure I\u2019ve written this exact same post before, but with different words, but the point is that I simply do not have a lot of personal time, and it\u2019s occasionally frustrating, to the point where I feel like I have to write about it, when I could literally be writing about anything else.\u00a0 But I guess such behavior is that of the first-time father, where things just kind of seem like a blur at times, and default mechanism behavior just kind of takes over, because all of this shit sounded way better in my head than when I actually took the time to sit down and write it, but because I\u2019m loss-averse I don\u2019t want to waste the effort I\u2019ve expended in putting all this bullshit down, so here we are.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m often sleep deprived and foggy in the head, so cut me a little slack.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mythical wife and I were playing some games online with our friends because we\u2019re still very much immersed in pandemic \u2018Murica and this is how things are done these days in order to be safe, and as we\u2019re in between games, the topic of conversation goes towards what television shows everyone is watching.\u00a0 Talking about … Continue reading New Father Brogging, #026<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[176,36,194,193,192],"class_list":["post-47414","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-murica","tag-angst","tag-coronavirus","tag-dad","tag-kids"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47414","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47414"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47414\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47655,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47414\/revisions\/47655"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47414"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47414"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47414"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}