{"id":47628,"date":"2021-01-17T10:36:03","date_gmt":"2021-01-17T15:36:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47628"},"modified":"2021-01-17T10:36:03","modified_gmt":"2021-01-17T15:36:03","slug":"dont-know-what-to-do-with-free-time-when-i-have-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47628","title":{"rendered":"Don\u2019t know what to do with free time when I have it"},"content":{"rendered":"

I could\u2019ve written this last night.\u00a0 Or the night before. \u00a0But instead, I\u2019m writing it now, under the challenge of wanting to knock out something before I have to go wake up my child from the first nap of the day, because I\u2019m feeling like I haven\u2019t really accomplished anything productive over the weekends that I pine for during the week, but have no idea what to do when they finally arrive.<\/span><\/p>\n

So I close my work laptop on Friday afternoon, and spend the rest of the afternoon playing with my daughter until it\u2019s time for her to go to bed.\u00a0 Bath time, and then bed time, and after she\u2019s asleep, I finally have some free time for myself for a few hours, before I go to bed at a conservative hour because I\u2019m up at 6:30 am every single day and I don\u2019t want to bone myself just because I want to stay up late just because it\u2019s the weekend.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t really do anything at all.\u00a0 I sit at my laptop watching random YouTube clips of chiropractor cracking, <\/span>Initial D<\/em>, and the seemingly endless parade of rehashed <\/span>Parks & Recreation<\/em> clips.\u00a0 Actually, I take that back partially, I watched the first two episodes of <\/span>WandaVision<\/em>, which I think it\u2019s too early to tell how I feel about it, except that I\u2019m able to stay in the game with it unlike <\/span>Legion<\/em>, but both episodes combined were about 45 minutes once you factor in the 14 minutes of ending credits in the first two episodes.<\/span><\/p>\n

Before I know it, it\u2019s 11:07 pm, it\u2019s too late for me to watch anything else, but it\u2019s still a hair earlier than I\u2019d rather go to bed, so instead I lay in bed playing <\/span>Fire Emblem Heroes<\/em> or doing surveys for pennies on my phone until it\u2019s time to go to bed.<\/span><\/p>\n

Saturday was a pretty good day, as I like to tie in little excursions amidst caring for my child throughout the day and in between her naps, so that we can all feel like we\u2019re actually leaving our house, even if it the vast majority of places are contactless or curbside pickups.\u00a0 We tried a new restaurant, ran some errands with no complications, and I heard from a friend that had been on my mind lately.\u00a0 I felt in such good spirits, I felt as if I should capitalize and buy a lottery ticket, since the Powerball was up to $640M, and why the fuck not.<\/span><\/p>\n

Baby goes to bed, and then it\u2019s really more of the same \u2013 I don\u2019t really know what to do, so I end up sitting at my laptop dicking around, feeling like I should at least watch something, hemming and hawing for way longer than most people typically do, and then watching the last two episodes of <\/span>Lovecraft Country<\/em> that I hadn\u2019t seen, except my heart\u2019s not really into it, and I ultimately end up thinking it\u2019s just kind of okay.\u00a0 Now it\u2019s 11 pm, and I\u2019m thinking of retiring so I don\u2019t kill myself at 6:30 the next morning.<\/span><\/p>\n

Which brings us to today.\u00a0 Instead of the one nap I give myself while baby naps (that was done on Saturday), I go ahead and get my every-other-day run out of the way.\u00a0 I pre-prepare a recipe that mythical wife and I hope will be baby-friendly, and now I\u2019m sitting here thinking that I\u2019ve let a large portion of the weekend go to waste, and musing at the simple fact that I don\u2019t really know what to do with my free time whenever I do have any.\u00a0 I could watch television or movies and chip into the queues that have bloated to gargantuan proportions, but then I often times get choice paralysis and then end up shutting down from overstimulation, and instead wishing that there were just more <\/span>90 Day Fiance<\/em> or <\/span>My 600 Lb. Life<\/em> to watch instead, which are the only shows that I really truly stay up on top of.<\/span><\/p>\n

But that\u2019s where I\u2019m at now.\u00a0 I just don\u2019t really know what to do with my free time, and that alone is enough to make me anxious and wordy but not do anything about it.\u00a0 It just becomes a topic for me to mindlessly brog about to consume 25 minutes in a manner that doesn\u2019t feel like completely a waste.\u00a0 Then soon will be time to wake up my child, and proceed with her day, and if she\u2019s fussy or cranky, then I\u2019m guiltily counting down the clock until the next nap to when I can have some free time that I don\u2019t know what to do with, and then the cycle continues until it\u2019s time to go to bed and then a larger cycle continues.<\/span><\/p>\n

It sounds way more depressing than I actually feel, but when I try to look at things objectively, that\u2019s really how it kind of looks.\u00a0 But at least I hit the Powerball three times, so I\u2019ll get back a whopping $12 on my $20 investment.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I could\u2019ve written this last night.\u00a0 Or the night before. \u00a0But instead, I\u2019m writing it now, under the challenge of wanting to knock out something before I have to go wake up my child from the first nap of the day, because I\u2019m feeling like I haven\u2019t really accomplished anything productive over the weekends that … Continue reading Don\u2019t know what to do with free time when I have it<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,92,78,83,69],"class_list":["post-47628","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-boredom","tag-lowered-expectations","tag-observations","tag-television"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47628","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47628"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47628\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47629,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47628\/revisions\/47629"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47628"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47628"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47628"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}