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Despite the fact that I generally try to avoid writing about work as much as possible, it\u2019s gotten pretty bad, to the point where it unfortunately permeates into my time off the clock, and poisons my thoughts and emotions on a regular basis.\u00a0 And because nobody actually reads my bullshit in the first place, this is probably about as safe as a place to vomit all my thoughts and emotions without needing to burden my wife, friends, famiry or anyone else I give a shit about with talking about work.<\/span><\/p>\n But lately, I\u2019ve decided to stare directly into the camera during certain meetings, like I were Robert De Niro in <\/span>Heat<\/em>.\u00a0 <\/span>The scene<\/a> where he\u2019s doing some recon for Val Kilmer when they\u2019re on a heist, and he just so happens to be looking directly at a night vision camera being actively monitored by Al Pacino.\u00a0 It looks like De Niro and Pacino are having a fierce stare down when in reality, they\u2019re two guys in different locations who have no earthly idea that they\u2019re looking right at one another.<\/span><\/p>\n Just like the virtual world of professional meetings, that we\u2019re living a reality of these days.<\/span><\/p>\n It\u2019s one of my favorite scenes in cinema, and captures the feeling of tension like few really can, and it\u2019s what I think about whenever I stare directly into the green light of my computer, so that everyone else on these particular calls can feel like I\u2019m staring directly at them, mostly when leadership is feeding me all sorts of bullshit lectures, attempting to emasculate me, tell me I suck at my job, or any other verbal act of trying to tear me down, which has become something of a sport to them, it really seems.<\/span><\/p>\n But I feel like staring at the camera which in turn makes it look like I\u2019m staring directly at them, makes me feel a little empowered and I hope that I\u2019m making them uncomfortable by looking like I\u2019m staring directly at them.\u00a0 The irony of it all is that while I\u2019m staring at the camera, I\u2019m not looking at anything that\u2019s actually particularly important, like whatever subject matter we might or might not be discussing if it\u2019s instead how much I suck at my job, but I can also type without looking at the keyboard unlike some of my peers, so if I ever need to be typing something, I can maintain my steely stare directly at the camera.<\/span><\/p>\n Metaphorically, it\u2019s my way of standing up to all the bullshit that\u2019s constantly flung in my direction, and I will do my very best to not let it get to me and ruin my confidence as a worker.\u00a0 But really, I just hope it makes people uncomfortable being stared at so directly.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Despite the fact that I generally try to avoid writing about work as much as possible, it\u2019s gotten pretty bad, to the point where it unfortunately permeates into my time off the clock, and poisons my thoughts and emotions on a regular basis.\u00a0 And because nobody actually reads my bullshit in the first place, this … Continue reading Something I\u2019ve started doing at work now<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,100,37,41],"class_list":["post-47713","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-comparison","tag-job","tag-movies"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47713","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47713"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47713\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47715,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47713\/revisions\/47715"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47713"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47713"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47713"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}