{"id":47976,"date":"2021-06-13T20:39:52","date_gmt":"2021-06-14T01:39:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47976"},"modified":"2021-06-18T20:40:01","modified_gmt":"2021-06-19T01:40:01","slug":"2-under-2-little-reprieve-046","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=47976","title":{"rendered":"2 Under 2: Little reprieve (#046)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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At the time I\u2019m writing this, I\u2019m not particularly in a very good place.\u00a0 As previously posted, mythical wife and I are at the point of #2\u2019s pregnancy where our breath is being held since it\u2019s possible that history could repeat itself and that\u2019s becoming kind of stressful, for all related reasons.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Meanwhile, in the life with #1, we\u2019re trying to transition her from two naps a day to one, which comes with its own set of challenges to schedule and adaptation, not to mention that she\u2019s clearly teething again, so that\u2019s been kind of stressful for all related reasons.<\/span><\/p>\n

And then there\u2019s the whole job situation, where my bosses are literally trying to get me fired now, so imagine how it feels going into work each day knowing that you are not wanted there, and invisible plans are already in motion that can result in your termination.\u00a0 So that\u2019s been kind of stressful.\u00a0 For all related reasons.<\/span><\/p>\n

Needless to say, I\u2019m currently in a position where the work week sucks for all obvious reasons, but then the weekends that are supposed to be two days of catching up and relaxation are sparsely any better because trying to navigate a teething toddler through a sleep transition often leads to a wailing baby and me getting frazzled and fried because I can\u2019t afford to have the help of a nanny on weekends, mythical wife is very pregnant and can\u2019t be as physically involved, which all results in not being particularly in a very good place.<\/span><\/p>\n

I go to bed on Sunday night feeling dejected and worn down, and also completely dreading returning to work the following day for a different set of stressors and anxieties to take place and this is where I realize that I am not particularly in a very good place.<\/span><\/p>\n

My capacity for any sort of disappointments and let-downs is basically nil, and once again I\u2019m in this headspace where everything is setting me off and pissing me off way more than it probably should.\u00a0 From the pets in the house, the barking of the dogs, the frustrations of cohabitation, but most of all, the sheer feeling of unreliability of the working world around me, namely the fact that mythical wife and I finally ordered a new treadmill, but it never showed.<\/span><\/p>\n

It was scheduled for arrival on Sunday, the window for arrival was completely missed, we wasted the entire fucking day held hostage at home expecting an arrival only to discover that it wasn\u2019t going to happen late in the day, and the day was basically a dead end wash in terms of potential productivity or finding something better to do with my wife and child than sit around and wait.<\/span><\/p>\n

It started this mental snowball of how much the American workforce is unreliable and incompetent, and how much I fucking despise just people who simply cannot manage time.\u00a0 I\u2019m getting put on a track for firing because I\u2019m potentially missing deadlines, but I never actually factually miss them.\u00a0 Out in the real world, workers are missing deadlines, failing to fulfill orders or do their jobs well, and this is accepted as the norm.\u00a0 I know there\u2019s something to be said about not everyone having hair triggers on firing people, but there\u2019s just this fucked up double standard I\u2019m feeling with my own circumstances versus the ones I, and probably everyone else, notice on a regular basis, with incompetent workforces.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know this is devolving into a rant, but the whole point of all this is that I\u2019m at a yet another unfortunate burnout point, and like most cases, nothing is going to get through this other than time, but at this current juncture, all the lights at the end of the tunnels all come with their own sets of heavy baggage, nor are any one of them definitive and mean any of the other tunnels\u2019 circumstances still don\u2019t happen if I\u2019m not on those trains.<\/span><\/p>\n

Just need to hope to make it through each day, with a job intact, #1 in good health, and a mythical wife still in good shape with #2 in the oven.\u00a0 But sometimes such circumstances feels like a bigger challenge than it does at other times.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

At the time I\u2019m writing this, I\u2019m not particularly in a very good place.\u00a0 As previously posted, mythical wife and I are at the point of #2\u2019s pregnancy where our breath is being held since it\u2019s possible that history could repeat itself and that\u2019s becoming kind of stressful, for all related reasons.\u00a0 Meanwhile, in the … Continue reading 2 Under 2: Little reprieve (#046)<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,193,45,37,192,105],"class_list":["post-47976","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-dad","tag-fail","tag-job","tag-kids","tag-rage"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47976","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47976"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47976\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47978,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47976\/revisions\/47978"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47976"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47976"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47976"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}