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I may have accepted that life might be on hold, but it doesn\u2019t mean that there aren\u2019t occasional bad days.<\/span><\/p>\n #2 is getting better in terms of us managing the colic and learning her tendencies, but one thing that hasn\u2019t really changed is her sheer unwillingness to take naps and give us a break from time to time, and the fact that she still exists in three states: sleeping (overnight), eating, or screaming her head off, with the caveat being that the screaming is usually only remedied by having someone holding her 24\/7 until she can be brought into another state, eventually<\/span><\/p>\n I\u2019m on dad duty for so long that I have no time to do anything else.\u00a0 <\/span>And when I say anything else, I mean do more work that I\u2019d be able to do without having to have a baby in my arms, because I\u2019m not fucking Goro from Mortal Kombat<\/i> and have another pair of arms to be productive with.\u00a0 <\/span>My house is a fucking disaster zone full of piles of things that adds to my general stress and anxiety because I\u2019m typically a pretty tidy person and I prefer my home be such as well.<\/span><\/p>\n I hardly have time to upkeep personal hygiene and pretty much every shower that I\u2019ve had in the last two months have typically been after midnight, where I\u2019m sacrificing rest time in order to not feel completely unraveled.<\/span><\/p>\n I don\u2019t have time to be a good dog owner, and since my dog is 16 and elderly, I have to keep him crated for the vast majority of the day solely because he will pee on everything under the sun if he\u2019s left free to his own devices.\u00a0 <\/span>I get mad when if and when he soils his dog beds, but it\u2019s primarily frustration at the fact that I don\u2019t even have time to even be able to take care of a dog\u2019s base needs adequately enough.<\/span><\/p>\n I seldom have time to eat, and eat well, and everyone knows cooking at home is typically the key to improved eating habits, but who the fuck has time to cook much less eat it, without having to be hands-on with #2, so mythical wife and I subsist on an unhealthy amount of fast food because it\u2019s all we can tolerate to indulge on when we\u2019re already parked on E and need to eat while we can breathe.<\/span><\/p>\n Throughout the last few months, I\u2019ve actually lost weight, I\u2019m below my license weight which was fabricated to make me feel like not a fat fuck, but I\u2019m actually below it now.\u00a0 <\/span>However, I know that\u2019s solely based on the fact that I literally haven\u2019t lifted any weights since mid-March of 2020, and I\u2019ve pretty much lost all muscle-mass that I\u2019d cultivated in the decades before coronavirus, and I\u2019m pissed at \u2018Murica for not being able to do what it takes to eradicate the pandemic and how it will never end and short of me turning my garage into a gym, there\u2019s no way I\u2019m ever going to reclaim any muscle mass that I\u2019ve lost at this rate, not to mention where the time would be, being a dad of 2 under 2 and all.<\/span><\/p>\n Let\u2019s not even talk about hobbies and personal indulgences, and the sheer time I don\u2019t have to be able to do any of those.\u00a0 <\/span>One more thing I\u2019d add to the list of unsolicited advice for new dads, would be to think of all the things you hope to accomplish in a day, and then count at day\u2019s end just how many of them you didn\u2019t get to.\u00a0 <\/span>Hobbies, are probably at the top of the list, followed probably by anything you wanted to do that utilized arms not handcuffed to an infant.\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019ve watched a lot of television over the last weeks, which isn\u2019t the worst thing in the world and is something that I ordinarily would like to do, but the thing is I do it because it\u2019s something I can do while holding an infant but when the day is over I\u2019d rather be writing because that\u2019s my passion hobby that I always want to be doing if I were ever to have free time where I wasn\u2019t joined at the hip to my infant.<\/span><\/p>\n It\u2019s not lost on me that the time I\u2019m taking to write this could\u2019ve been spent writing about anything else at all instead of another frustrated rambling of an overwhelmed dad, but as I often say, I want to remember everything, including the negative, about fatherhood, because it\u2019s always important to be able to look back and learn from the past, even if they\u2019re not always the most positive of things.<\/span><\/p>\n And unlike a lot of things where I have to write from memory and retroactively try to mentally get back to places, this is something that\u2019s written fairly live and current, and I think it\u2019s important to chronicle these emotions and frustrations and not let them simply evaporate until they bubble back up in the near future, and the words come out completely differently.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n Weekends suck because I don\u2019t have the free time that I have to pay for in order to do absolutely anything other than being a hands-on dad.\u00a0 <\/span>Funny how that works out: free time, costing a fuck ton of money.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I may have accepted that life might be on hold, but it doesn\u2019t mean that there aren\u2019t occasional bad days. #2 is getting better in terms of us managing the colic and learning her tendencies, but one thing that hasn\u2019t really changed is her sheer unwillingness to take naps and give us a break from … Continue reading 2 Under 2: Untitled dad ramblings 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