{"id":48367,"date":"2022-01-07T10:59:28","date_gmt":"2022-01-07T15:59:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=48367"},"modified":"2022-01-07T21:59:42","modified_gmt":"2022-01-08T02:59:42","slug":"how-today-should-be-versus-how-it-is","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=48367","title":{"rendered":"How today should be versus how it is"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today is my last day with *Fortune 50 company redacted<\/strong><\/em>*.\u00a0 I\u2019ve been here for a hair under six years, and this is the longest job I\u2019ve ever had.\u00a0 As much of a stressor and source of frustration the job had turned into over the last two years, under normal circumstances today really should be a bittersweet one, because there are still a lot of good people there, I\u2019ve made a lot of good relationships, as I close this chapter of my career.<\/span><\/p>\n

Instead I\u2019m just bitter, at all the life\u2019s circumstances that are swirling around in play right now, and I\u2019m having a very difficult time letting go of all this anger and frustration I\u2019m feeling. It\u2019s tarnishing absolutely everything around in my life right now, and I\u2019m fully aware of it and how calm people always wax poetic about how it\u2019s never good to hold onto anger, but I can\u2019t help it because my entire household has been compromised by one fucking person who thinks vaccination means they can resume living life like it were 2018 again and going into crowds and picking up plagues to spread unto others.<\/span><\/p>\n

I should be excited about my new job starting up soon, but I\u2019m not.\u00a0 I haven\u2019t even worked a day, but I\u2019m already dreading it, because my home is still fucked with COVID, and in spite of me originally thinking I may have been asymptomatic, I\u2019m feeling shit in my throat that is saying otherwise and I\u2019m 99% sure I too now have dropped off the list of the undefeated but I can\u2019t know definitively because the America is too full of stupid fucks, the disease is everywhere and I can\u2019t get tested because all sites are slammed to oblivion and and all home tests are sold out everywhere until like 2025.<\/span><\/p>\n

Instead of embarking on my new career path full of optimism and hope eternal, it\u2019ll more than likely be just like a day like today: me on double duty with my girls because we can\u2019t bring in help because of COVID and mythical wife still having to go to work because the school system is more fucked up than Heaven\u2019s Gate and they\u2019re more than willing to turn a blind eye to someone with a very recent exposure as long as they don\u2019t have to go get a substitute teacher.\u00a0 So I\u2019m quadruple stressed out because I probably have the \u2018Rona, I\u2019m still on the clock with my last day of work, I\u2019m worried for my wife, and dealing with both kids.<\/span><\/p>\n

All because one person brought the fucking plague into my home.<\/span><\/p>\n

I should be coasting to the finish line and feeling melancholy as I bid adieu.\u00a0 I should be excited about my new job coming up.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I should be in good spirits.<\/span><\/p>\n

But I\u2019m not.\u00a0 I\u2019m angry, frustrated, disappointed and disgusted.\u00a0 Brain full of bile, throat full of phlegm, feeling bitter and resentful and helpless because there\u2019s absolutely jack shit that can really be done about any of this but wait it out.<\/span>Have to power through orientation and day 1 of new job while putting up a facade that everything is fine.\u00a0 Have to wait out 10-14 days to hope that this Omicron bullshit works its way through my house\u2019s residents.\u00a0 Have to eventually find somewhere to test or have to pay for fucking home tests if they can even be found.<\/span><\/p>\n

Have to keep life in fucking hold stasis for even longer, because of the conduct of someone outside my home.<\/span><\/p>\n

Today should be a good day.\u00a0 But it\u2019s fucking not.\u00a0 I can get over me getting sick, but my wife and my innocent children getting sick, is inexcusable.\u00a0 It\u2019s not fucking fair, and this is anger that I will be incapable of letting go of, for a long time.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Today is my last day with *Fortune 50 company redacted*.\u00a0 I\u2019ve been here for a hair under six years, and this is the longest job I\u2019ve ever had.\u00a0 As much of a stressor and source of frustration the job had turned into over the last two years, under normal circumstances today really should be a … Continue reading How today should be versus how it is<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[176,36,194,71,37,177,105],"class_list":["post-48367","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-murica","tag-angst","tag-coronavirus","tag-famiry","tag-job","tag-mythical","tag-rage"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48367","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=48367"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48367\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":48368,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48367\/revisions\/48368"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=48367"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=48367"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=48367"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}