{"id":49710,"date":"2023-12-04T22:16:58","date_gmt":"2023-12-05T03:16:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=49710"},"modified":"2023-12-07T22:17:05","modified_gmt":"2023-12-08T03:17:05","slug":"dear-world-its-not-you-its-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=49710","title":{"rendered":"Dear world: it\u2019s not you, it\u2019s me"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/span>After all, I am Korean.\u00a0 And no culture has higher expectations from other people as Koreans do, and I ponder the day if and when anyone can prove to me that anyone can work harder than a Korean can, because as far as my personal experiences are concerned, I\u2019m hard pressed to ever have bared witness to such.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mythical wife and I got into a little tiff coming back from the airport, because she was tired of everything coming out of my mouth being a complaint, and I was tired of being criticized for speaking negatively in a scenario where everything was going annoyingly when I feel that everything else I do is usually for the sake of others because I\u2019m always trying to please everyone.\u00a0 Atlanta Hartsfield Latoya-Jackson Ching Chong Chang really is capable of bringing the worst out of everyone at the drop of a hat, even those who are on their way out of it.<\/span><\/p>\n

We landed right at midnight, and having sat at the very back of the aircraft, we\u2019re the last to deplane, which is never a pleasant experience sitting in a giant metal tube with stagnant air for an extra 20 minutes than most other people.\u00a0 Naturally, we\u2019re at the very end of the terminal, so it\u2019s a quarter mile to get to the escalators only to find out that the Pain Train shuttle is on reduced service and only one side of the tracks are operating, so we start walking, only for there to be assholes who clog up the moving walkway with wheelchairs they\u2019re using as push carts or people just too fucking stupid and\/or oblivious and not moving out the way for those actually walking.<\/span><\/p>\n

We get on the next pain train, and of course, it stops because the tracks are clogged, right before we need to get off, adding even more time to our arrival, to which I am being cognizant about because as it\u2019s past midnight, a new day is ticking, and I don\u2019t want to get charged even more for parking than I have to at this point, so getting out as soon as possible is the objective.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arriving at the main terminal, it turns out that basically the entire north wing is cordoned off, so we have to do a really cumbersome detour around south and then back to north, and of course the parking payment machines are all gone, presumably so that people can no longer pre-pay for their parking and increase the chances of time lapsing further while you get to your car, and drive through the maze-like exits of the on-site parking.<\/span><\/p>\n

By the time we\u2019re off the premises, mythical wife and I are already not speaking, because she\u2019s tired of my complaining, and I\u2019m over not being allowed to be upset at the fact that Atlanta Hartsfield Latoya-Jackson is run by brain dead invalids who love to parrot that they\u2019re the busiest airport in the world, leaving out the fact that such business is wholly a result of the fact that they\u2019re run by a bunch of brain dead invalids.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t apologize for having higher expectations of the world around me, and I understand that the only one set up for failure for having such a mindset is myself, because the rest of the non-Korean world is way more accepting of substandard performance out of fucking everyone than I am.\u00a0 And like a self-fulfilling prophecy, I am failing, because I fall victim to getting annoyed by fucking everything, because nobody in the world is capable of performing a job at a satisfactory level, seemingly anywhere I go.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know the easy solution to a large percentage of the angst I experience on a daily basis would probably go away if I simply lowered my expectations on the world around me and were better capable of accepting the fact that the world is way less competent than I hope they could be, but it\u2019s difficult for me.\u00a0 I\u2019m Korean, and culturally, Korean people expect a lot out of other people, and it\u2019s never not disappointing when our expectations are not met.\u00a0 This is a facet of my personality that in spite of my American upbringing that remains very much Korean, and it sucks because it means I\u2019m an easy mark for disappointment, negativity and pessimism.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t mean to be so negative and pessimistic and nihilistic about the world around me, but sometimes I really can\u2019t help it.\u00a0 I expect basic competence from everyone around me, and when everyone around me mostly, inevitably falls short, it\u2019s a disappointment.\u00a0 But I\u2019m not going to apologize for voicing my opinions; I may try to be more cognizant that not everyone is going to want to hear them, but I don\u2019t apologize if they come out.\u00a0 If the world around me were more competent at their jobs and fostered efficiency and smooth operating, I wouldn\u2019t have room for complaint, and in fact be grateful and praising of good work, because few things please me more than benefiting from efficient operating.<\/span><\/p>\n

But as the subject of this post says, I know it\u2019s not the world\u2019s fault that I\u2019m always so cranky and critical.\u00a0 It\u2019s entirely on me, because I have too many expectations from everyone, that I\u2019m only setting myself up for let down and disappointment when they all inevitably fail to meet such par but lofty standards.\u00a0 I\u2019m working on it as much as a person like me can possibly work on it.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

After all, I am Korean.\u00a0 And no culture has higher expectations from other people as Koreans do, and I ponder the day if and when anyone can prove to me that anyone can work harder than a Korean can, because as far as my personal experiences are concerned, I\u2019m hard pressed to ever have bared … Continue reading Dear world: it\u2019s not you, it\u2019s me<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[117,36,78,103,83,105,146],"class_list":["post-49710","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-airports","tag-angst","tag-lowered-expectations","tag-motherland","tag-observations","tag-rage","tag-triggered"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49710","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=49710"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49710\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":49711,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49710\/revisions\/49711"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=49710"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=49710"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=49710"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}