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I don\u2019t know why I feel like I should write about this, especially since it\u2019s coming from a place of fear and apprehension of the worst, but I guess that if things do go tits up in regards to this, there\u2019s a part of me that I guess wants to chronicle it for the sake of chronicling all of the things in my life that might be a big deal, whether or not they\u2019re bad or good.<\/span><\/p>\n But for the last few days, I\u2019ve had a pain in my head, and not the metaphorical kind that comes from a lifestyle of being stressed all the time, compounded with varying degrees of depression and anxiety.\u00a0 Like an actual dull rolling ache that pulses along the back left part of my skull.\u00a0 It\u2019s not the worst pain in the world by any stretch of the imagination, but because it kind of throbs and rolls through when it happens, it sometimes catches me off guard and causes me to really wince or if I\u2019m in the midst of doing something, causing an interruption.<\/span><\/p>\n It kind of hurts to the touch, but only the first time, and subsequent rubbings of the area don\u2019t really hurt, so I\u2019m not entirely sure if it\u2019s a topical thing or if it\u2019s something going on underneath the skin.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u2019m aware that this could be many different things, many of which are no real big deal at all, but me being me, my mind tends to go towards the worst possible scenarios, and given what my family has been through over the last few years as far as people having to deal with different things, I have to ask myself, and hope that it\u2019s not my turn for something bad to happen to.<\/span><\/p>\n Needless to say, old single childless me would have just continued to gut it out longer and waited for it to get worse before acting on it, but the married dad me of today doesn\u2019t want to run the risk of it being something that could\u2019ve been prevented from getting worse if it\u2019s something that I can get in front of.\u00a0 It\u2019s only been a few days, where I had just hoped it was maybe daylight savings-related old man body adjusting to the time change, or just the elevated level of stress in which I\u2019ve been running on, on account of the issues I\u2019m dealing with, with my own dad, as well as a high workload at work, on top of being an active and hands-on dad dealing with my own kids on the regular.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Unfortunately, the occurrences of the occasional pulsing aches has not really subsided, so I reached out to my doctor for their opinion, and we\u2019ll go from there.\u00a0 What I\u2019m hoping is that I\u2019m just dealing with excessive stress, compounded with likely blood pressure elevation that I\u2019ve learned runs in my family, and that I just need to chill the fuck out more often than I do, and that it\u2019s not like some aneurism or blood clot or tumor risk I\u2019m running and that I need immediate surgery and utilization of shitty American health care insurance to fuck my family over for the next few years.<\/span><\/p>\n However, the point remains that it does have me a little nervous about what it could be, and I\u2019m eagerly awaiting response from my doctor, so I can have some piece of mind of what needs to come next.\u00a0 It\u2019s the waiting and the unknowns that truly are the killers, but in spite of it all, I do pat myself on the back for breaking old habits and mentalities and just trying to gut things out and hope they go away.\u00a0 Having one\u2019s own family definitely helps with that, and understanding that my life isn\u2019t just my life, so much as it belongs to others whom I wish to be around for as long as I can.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I don\u2019t know why I feel like I should write about this, especially since it\u2019s coming from a place of fear and apprehension of the worst, but I guess that if things do go tits up in regards to this, there\u2019s a part of me that I 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