{"id":51185,"date":"2026-04-29T20:36:40","date_gmt":"2026-04-30T01:36:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=51185"},"modified":"2026-05-01T20:36:54","modified_gmt":"2026-05-02T01:36:54","slug":"ive-never-had-an-april-that-has-sucked-more-than-this-years-has","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/?p=51185","title":{"rendered":"I\u2019ve never had an April that has sucked more than this year\u2019s has"},"content":{"rendered":"

Even in the most curmudgeon periods of my life, I\u2019ve always kind of held my breath and walked on eggshells whenever it\u2019s come to the month of April.\u00a0 Seeing as how it\u2019s the month in which my birthday is, I\u2019m always cautiously optimistic that they can\u2019t possibly suck that much, seeing as how there\u2019s a very concrete day in which the world is obligated to not be too much of a dick to me on, and I always hope that the grace of a birthday has a tendency to permeate through as much of the rest of the month as the fates are willing to grace.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sure, I\u2019ve had some shitty things happen in Aprils before, and history has shown a predisposition<\/a> for some real bad<\/a> shit to usually happen<\/a> around the time<\/a> of my birthday, but save for large swaths of the world crying, memorializing or mourning the departed, most of the time I can usually rely on my birthdays themselves to not be the worst days in the world.<\/span><\/p>\n

Throw all that shit out the window this year, because not only was a really fucking sick on my birthday this year, it\u2019s not a far stretch to say that I\u2019ve basically been sick all throughout the month, and the fact that I can\u2019t seem to get back to being 100% healthy has been mentally challenging, frustrating and demoralizing, especially since I feel like I could handle or have handled a lot of the frustrations of the month better than I have, had I had my health to rely upon to be in good standing through it all.<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s like, #2 and I caught a cold of some sort early on in the month, that I remember taking almost an entire week off from the office and worked remote, and I kind of got better.\u00a0 But it\u2019s like neither of us truly got fully recovered from that sickness, and by the time I hobbled back home after my week of exile back up in Northern Virginia to clean up my old joint, both my kids had ear infections, and within a week, such had passed onto me, leading to me spending my actual birthday in a lot of pain and misery of having an ear infection that went undiagnosed by the first urgent care I went to because they suck, leading to me to suffer throughout it for several days afterward before I went to get a second opinion, and confirmation that I had some shit going on.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve never had an ear infection in my life before, so let me just say how much it sucks to get one for the first time.\u00a0 The feeling of a swollen or burst ear drum, the constant throbbing and being able to hear my heartbeat, the sensation that it\u2019s like I permanently have an AirPod in the ear with noise cancellation on, because I\u2019m hard of hearing through it.\u00a0 And before I got put on antibiotics, the main was just so dull and persistent, and was absolutely handicapping when I wasn\u2019t on some sort of painkillers.<\/span><\/p>\n

Furthermore, ear infections are usually byproduct of bad colds, and it\u2019s like I\u2019ve had this one, or maybe two colds all month long, and although I mostly feel fine, it\u2019s one of those bugs where it\u2019s left a Chinese Great Wall of mucus in my chest and sinuses, that is taking its dear sweet fucking time in going away, resulting in a lot of aggravated coughing spells, which is wreaking havoc on my sleep and my wife\u2019s sleep, and I haven\u2019t felt like I\u2019ve gotten adequate sleep almost throughout the entire month.\u00a0 It\u2019s been like an entire decade since I\u2019ve had this kind of phlegmy misery, because I remember how much is sucked back then, and how much it sucks to have it again now.<\/span><\/p>\n

The bottom line is that I just can\u2019t seem to get healthy, and it sucks that basically the entire month of April has come and gone with me being sick throughout most of it.\u00a0 And to add insult to injury, there\u2019s been all sorts of bullshit happenings between my dad, the workload at work, my dad, all of the shit I have to do for my dad, the disappointment of trying to accomplish things but relying on the responses and communication of others, and of course, my dad.<\/span><\/p>\n

As is often the case, I feel as if I\u2019m being pulled from all sides from everyone in my life, leading me to grow frustrated and wish people would just take the reins and run without having to review everything with me first, and that I\u2019m taken for granted on such a monumental level by pretty much everyone in my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

And because as much as I\u2019d like to memorialize these folks with individual posts but don\u2019t really feel like I have the energy to do it in remotely a time-sensitive manner, some dudes I enjoyed or revered kicked the bucket this month, just to hammer down the notion that April this year sucked goat ball sacks.\u00a0 But Darrell Sheets from Storage Wars<\/em> apparently killed himself, with there being tremendous speculation that it came at the urging of a psychotic online bully stalker.<\/span><\/p>\n

And although there wasn\u2019t as much scandal behind a 91-year old man with dementia passing, Roger Sweet, the creator of He-Man<\/em> passed as well, and this is one of those situations where there\u2019s no hyperbole when I say a piece of my childhood just died, because I lived, died and breathed He-Man and the Masters of the Universe growing up, and it is truly sad to learn that that creator of such an iconic property of my childhood has left us.<\/span><\/p>\n

Needless to say, this April has sucked colossally, and I\u2019m relieved to see it nearing its end.\u00a0 I try to not put too much stock into arbitrary windows of time, because there\u2019s no guarantee May will be better than April for no other reason than it not being April anymore, but this past month has sucked so much that I\u2019m willing to set my pessimism aside for just a little bit and hope that May doesn\u2019t blow half as much as April of this year has.<\/span><\/p>\n

More than anything, I just want my health back, and for my ear to stop ringing and to be able to hear like a normal functional adult again.\u00a0 I feel like if I\u2019m at least physically healthy, it will only help in enduring any other bullshit that might come along and is immediately made worse by my not feeling well.<\/span><\/p>\n

I still want a re-do on my birthday though.\u00a0 I haven\u2019t opened any of the gifts I received yet, because I\u2019ve been in such a negative headspace, that I don\u2019t want the good intentions of any presents to be soiled by my negative headspace.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Even in the most curmudgeon periods of my life, I\u2019ve always kind of held my breath and walked on eggshells whenever it\u2019s come to the month of April.\u00a0 Seeing as how it\u2019s the month in which my birthday is, I\u2019m always cautiously optimistic that they can\u2019t possibly suck that much, seeing as how there\u2019s a … Continue reading I\u2019ve never had an April that has sucked more than this year\u2019s has<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[36,67,137,45,71,83,52,146,49],"class_list":["post-51185","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-brog","tag-angst","tag-birthday","tag-death","tag-fail","tag-famiry","tag-observations","tag-owned","tag-triggered","tag-wtf"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51185","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51185"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51185\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51186,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51185\/revisions\/51186"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51185"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51185"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/totfc.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51185"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}