Seeing as how only my six readers will actually read this, I can at least be alleviated from the curmudgeon nagging accusations of VagueBooking if I were to post this on social media.

I have been made unhappy with the state of my life, and no matter how much I am trying to put it out of mind and try and focus on other things, it’s extremely difficult for me to do, and I am very displeased that I am having such internal conflict that proving incapable of being overcome.

It’s not uncommon that people don’t like being forced into doing something that they don’t want to do, and even in the cases of things that are all but inevitable, people don’t like to be rushed.  That’s what I’m dealing with right now, and it’s making me hypothesize about the future, when I don’t really feel quite ready to be doing such, it’s just making me feel all sorts of anger and resentment, instead of optimism and amazement at the world of possible new adventures and opportunity.

I’m upset and disappointed right now, and I do not appreciate the fact that my being put into this state was something completely avoidable, but was negligently not.  I’d say that it’s not fair, but that would be silly to state the obvious notion that many given things in life have a possibility of being fair.