Day: February 18, 2014

Negativity

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I hate my life right now, and I don’t know what to do about it.

I feel so utterly alone these days, and I don’t even know where to go where to find people I trust to discuss my problems. Family is out of the question because I cannot discuss anything with them without the underlying judgment for my life’s decisions. I don’t want to burden others with my mental weight, or I don’t frankly feel comfortable enough attempting to unload my problems with just any people.

Any attempts I make at trying to do something good, something fun, or anything that might bring me back to a happier place are constantly derailed. Be it the weather, conflicting schedules, things I perceive as inconsideration or selfishness of others, or just apathy on account of being depressed, I just am having a real difficult time in shaking this funk.

The worst part is that I’m fully aware that the trapped feeling I feel is imposed upon me by nobody but myself, and there’s the chance that I’m being too cautious about being too careful with those around me. I feel like I’m always in a state of walking on egg shells, and that everyone is tippy toeing around egg shells around me themselves.

I want to scream and yell out all my problems and hope that someone hears me and can be a stereotypical pillar of a personal support structure, but at the same time I don’t want to clarify issues and drop names, because I don’t necessarily think that solves anything either. So I remain quiet and stewing, which I know isn’t healthy either, but it seems like the safest bet until a better solution arises.

Underlying all these issues is the inherent fear that I’m turning into my dad; a miserable, solitary island of a man who may have felt all these things at some point in his life, but like me might constantly feel that bottling it up is better.

Life is not good right now. I am unhappy and I don’t know what do to about it.

What would the country be like without stores?

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I was reading this article about how CVS has decided to ditch selling tobacco products (which I support wholeheartedly), and how supposedly such a radical business philosophy change came about on the idea that Amazon is essentially after their market.  Not going to lie, that’s a terrible description, and admittedly, I stopped really reading it once the initial thought popped into my head upon seeing the line that was along the idea that Amazon was basically killing brick and mortar stores left and right.

Now I can’t say if Amazon is attempting to take over the world of consumer commerce with malicious global domination intentions, but for all intents and purposes I do like Amazon a lot, in terms of what they provide.  These days, there’s pretty much nothing out there that I can’t see, and think think “hm, I wonder what it costs on Amazon,” find it on Amazon, cheaper at that, and oho, it’s also Prime eligible.  It’s the epitome of convenience and cost-effective efficiency these days for things that you do not need to have in your hands in that very second.

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