The following is a list of movies back from 2011 to around today, that I wanted to see:
- Captain America
- The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo
- The Cabin in the Woods
- Bridesmaids
- 50/50
- Spider-Man
- Ted
- The Avengers
- Prometheus
- The Hunger Games
- Project X
- Men in Black 3
- The Dictator
- Chernobyl Diaries
- Seeking a Friend for the End of the World
I haven’t seen any of these movies.
It’s not anyone’s fault except my own that I don’t see more movies, but the fact is I really don’t want to go by myself that often. It’s not like I care about being the pathetic looking party of one in a movie theater, but it’s more the fact that it’s just nice to have company to go watch a flick with, so you have someone to talk about it with, right after the movie. I live kind of far from the closest theaters, so it sucks to have nobody to speak with on the drives to and from, whenever I do go to watch a movie, which I can’t really remember what the last one I saw was, maybe Moneyball.
I can’t expect to always rely on my friends to go watch movies with all the time, because frankly sometimes they want to go watch movies as couples or at least without spare tires along for the ride. And to be perfectly honest, sometimes it doesn’t feel that great when I am along as the spare wheel, because it mentally exacerbates the solitude for me occasionally.
So it really boils down to the idea that perhaps if I want to see more movies, then perhaps I should get back on the dating wagon or something. Which really kind of sucks, because the idea of dating sometimes just seems so exasperating, but in times like right now, when Batman is just released, and I really want to see Batman, I don’t want this flick to be another movie to add to the already-seemingly extensive list of potentially entertaining films not seen due to not having anyone to go see with.
Ironically, I think going to the movies is one of the worst things to do when going out on dates. Especially early on, because the first few dates really are the feeling-out process, and trying to get to know a person. Enclosing yourself in a dark theater where speaking during a movie is frowned upon always seemed kind of counterproductive in my opinion, not to mention that if that the initial close proximity feeling hasn’t been overcome early, then it’s really going to suck when two people are obligated to be side-by-side in the dark.
Obviously, pursuing dating just for the sake of seeing movies is a terrible reason, but hey, after this long, who the fuck really cares?
But I digress; I really just want to see Batman, and if I have to go by myself, I’ll go by myself, and I’ll deal with the emotional self-loathing, and the poorly veiled sentiment that I might be feeling ronery at times, another time.
